sad memory...

Suddenly think of her... hugging and kissing a guy just in front of my eyes... who can understand that kind of feeling? Sooo hurt... pain like thousand of knives stab into my heart... Think open? Be open-minded? I did... if not that guy and i would had a bad fight! And i believed he would be beated by me until very serious! Soo Hot that time! Now think back also got a bit hot...

During msn chatting with friends, somehow recalled my nightmare! One of my friend told me that, "guy should not cry because guy should be strong..." then she continued,"This little thing shouldn't cry. Actually break is not a serious thing." Then other friend argue," u say till so easy."

Ya, it's not that easy to hide my feelings and not to cry because she was my real love, my true love... Never lover other until so deep in a relationship... What happened actually? Why we will have the sad ending? Thousand of question marks keep on appearing in my mind... Who can tell me the truth? Who set up the trap? why...

I am so tired tired tired...... I wish my mind would delete all the sad memories between she and i... but these few nights always dream about her!! This is so ridiculous! Aarrgghhh! Pek Chek arr!